Freak

This is not a song I have recorded yet. I wrote it while living in a mouse infested attic of a garage in Minnesota shortly after moving there to finish up school. It's a song about realizing who you are and then being comfortable with that. We all can think lowly of ourselves at times, but when you finally enjoy who you are - that's what matters. You may be as normal as the rest of the world and that's fine, if you're okay with that. You may also be one of the few that won't color in the lines, dips their french fries in chocolate shakes and doesn't care who sees you cry. That's okay too. Don't let anyone get you down.


In tomorrow's window pane
I'll remember I'm so plain
Scratching sweetly at my throat
I will sing a brand new note


Am I frightened of myself?
Old and dirty on this shelf
In my mind I'll find retreat
While you outwardly defeat


Should I kick myself on down the stairs
So I can see the stars?
Dress me up in some sad yellow day
Then please just go away


I finally found a way
To burn away my day
And now I've reached my peak
I'm something of a freak


I could never fly away
I will never be okay
Life's a ladder I can't climb
In my twisted, dirty mind


From a distance I will watch myself
And laugh with all my might
Why can't I take the things I hate in me
And leave them all behind?


I finally found a way
To burn away my day
And now I've reached my peak
I'm something of a freak


I am swinging on my hinge
So I'll jump off of this bridge
Cursed to burn the whole night through
What a wicked thing to do


Should I walk outside and lick the sky
To see if I should pray?
These fires burn away at my old self
And now I feel okay


I finally found a way
To burn away my day
And now I've reach my peak
I'm something of a freak